experimented

So, their must be a better world,

Somewhere beyond what we have seen,

a John Lennon world if one may call it,

heaven, i think that's what they speak of.

It must be perfect in every sense,

mayhaps without pettiness or judgement.

or prejudices of souls.

without promises of different heavens.

Or wrath of gods for every sin.

Their is probably a different God.

more indulgent and presumably undivided

into Allahs and Rams and Yahwehs...

where satisfaction is guaranteed.

this world's god is a mad scientist.

this world a rather bizarre experiment

where i don't know whether I'm a customer

or the product itself.

faulted designs with bigger brains than needed,

or bigger hearts susceptible to breakdown.

there is another school of thought...

this world is a junkyard of faulty designs.

each surviving whilst destroying another.

the shredder engulfs them one by one...

shredding them and putting them

in a big blast furnace

the 50 questions tag

01. What time did you get up this morning?
i slept in the morning... just got up... at 4 45
02. How do u like your steak?
tender...
03. What was the last film you saw at a cinema?

Kaminey yesterday

04. What is your favorite TV show?
These days Naruto, other wise... HIMYM, TOP GEAR, YEs minister... enjoy them all
05. If you could live anywhere in the world, where it would be?
IF i COULD live anywhere it would be ladakh.... otherwise delhi does just fine
06. What did you have for breakfast?
Nothing..isnt it past lunchtime already?
07. What is your favorite cuisine?
Indian. Italian is a close second... anything that constitutes lots of meat. :)

08. What foods do you dislike?
tinde...loathe them... and i have taken a recent dislike to tofu
09. Favorite place to eat?
BIG CHILL khan market... i have kinda made it a habit not to go to the same restaurant twice.... but cant seem to keep off big chill

10. (i made up a question here) what questionm would you like to be asked here?

what is your mood right now??

11. What kind of vehicle do you drive?
i drive a bus... 11 number
12. What are your favorite clothes?
Shorts and lose T always.... i would like to be a nudist though if given a chance (and im supposed to be a fashion designer...sigh!!! no wonder i dont have a job yet)
13. Where would you visit if you had the chance?
EVEN THE MOON!!!

14. Cup 1/2 empty or 1/2 full???

full... on the verge of emptying... im just having tea so literally
15. Where would you want to retire?

somewhere in the mountains
16. Favorite time of the day?sunset... i spend it mostly with stupendous man... laughing about some random thing

17. Where were you born?
DELHI, INDIA
18. What is your favorite sport to watch?
football, or tennis... dont enjoy watching cricket too much these days

19. Who do you think will not tag you back?
I donno no idea...

20. Person you expect to tag back you first?
Donno.

21. Who are you most curious about their responses to this?
no one... im not even sure anyone does this blog
22. Bird watcher?
Not too much

23. Are you a morning person or a night person?
totally a night person...

24. Do you have any pets?
not yet
25. Any new and exciting news you'd like to share?
yes, i have started writing... follow it on http://quixoticdeceit.wordpress.com i know this is cheap publicity

26. What did you want to do when you were little?
doctor...with a red maruti and a red plus sign on its sheesha
27. What is your best childhood memory?none.... i have temporary amnesia of my childhood

28. Are you a cat person or a dog person?
a DOG person...definitely.
29. Are you married?
No.

30. Always wear your seat belt?
nope
31. Been in a car accident?
nope. would like to be in one... atleast to die...

32. Any pet peeves?nagging...

33. Favorite pizza toppings?
quatro formage.... with white sauce and garlic...

34. Favorite flower?
carnations...always...
35. Favorite ice cream?
butter scotch... and nougat
36. Favorite fast food restaurant?
dominos
37. How many times did you fail your driver's test?
LOL. never...have never taken one

38. From whom did you get your last email?

google alerts on fashion designer
39. Which store would you choose to max out your credit card?
any stationary or music store
40. Do anything spontaneously?
mostly everything
41. Happy with your job?
yes, i dont have any
42. Brocolli?
yep in pasta
43. What was your favorite vacation?
alone... ooty and kunnoor
44. Last person you went out to dinner with?
stupendous man... a pre kaminey dinner

45. What are you listening to right now?
Laaga chunari mein daag, from the movie dil hi to hai.

46. What is you favorite color?none in particular... purple comes close to winning

47. How many tattoos do you have?
None
48. How many are you tagging for this quiz?
no one
49. In what time did you finish this quiz?
close to an hour....

50. Coffee drinker?
Yepp, totally.

part m1: the nonchildhood

B makes her first appearance in our story, fighting ninja monkeys at the age of three. while the location was very serene, and she was quite innocent. destiny had other plans for her... she valiantly fought but she lost... her most precious possession. and she swore then that she would not let anything be so dear to her. instead she steeled herself against this cruel world.

Even in her school days, while others lay simply learning their ABC's she sat in her seat, contemplating, how she would take over the world one day. making her evil plans on her classwork notebook. with marked diagrams. while the teacher presumed the brilliant child was doing well. her genius lay in the fact that she could fool anyone with her innocent smiles and banterings of any other child.

she preferred working alone... lest she be caught up in the worldlyness of the others. what did they know, how cruel this world is. fate is going to destroy their dreams and she knew it. she had known that ever since she fought those ninja monkeys. once in a while she would act cute, she had to... everyone else would be suspicious otherwise... and oh! the amount of people who fell victim to her visciousness. the only time she showed her true powers to the world was when someone else tried to hurt her. She rose like the serpent and struck back. and she acted cute again to get out of it. it was too easy... it was a piece of cake for her actually...

no one knows how she suddenly changed from a mere little child of 3 to a 12 year old... no one...  B keeps her secrets hidden deep within her. This is all I know about her Childhood... from her lost diaries... and other people's accounts... obviously most have haad their memories modified... wonder what she did to them to have to resort to such a drastic use of her super powers.

B grows up in this rather fishy world.. . in her own FISHY ways... sometimes chickeny on sundays...

you can now follow the story of stupendous man on

THE ADVENTURES OF STUPENDOUS MAN

It has also been put on my blogroll for the people who want to read it otherwise

Chapter -1 Childhood

One year old and he was already making news. even the doctor was surprised at the childs amazing ability to eat and digest most things that other kids wont touch with a bargepole. what he loved the most was eating icecream and chasing goats in busy markets. No one then noticed his special power of finding notes in the odd adverts of a washing powder which made your head spin.

He could probably teach the grownups  all the countries and their capitals at the age of three. Who was to know that skill would be specially helpful in his later years. Nabbing the gang of highly deceptive felons of international stature and specially their cool headed female boss.

He had an inquisitive mind right from the beginning, and started questioning people about the most seemingly mundane things. It was then he got to know about the tanks of the world. How this society was built around Mother tank and mama tanks... he wondered if the world was built only around that.

His superpowers by this time had already developed. And though he did not know how he would use them, he just entertained people with it. Making friends out of complete strangers. He was easily likeable. But what is the truth about him?

Will stupendous man be able to learn the truth about himself?

Will he realise his gift in time to save the unsaved?

Will he have a normal life?

What are these tanks?

this and more... coming up soon

to be contd.

13 Days Queen

The midnight hour has already been struck about 2 hours ago in India. And im writing about the very people we snatched our freedoms from..

Sometimes it is ironical how bloody history can be and how little we know about the past, and we speculate about the future... how old people would always muse about "in our days... this or that would have never happened" and when you look back, the rebels existed, as did the nerds, as did failures and the odd winner. they have all moved on... and so does life.

The magic of history is thus, its like a fairy tale, something that we pretend that can never happen to us. how different was Lady Jane Grey from our very own sunitas and anitas being sacrificed for the greater good for the society to move ahead.

fiction part 2

she is "B"... some one else's though. she looks at the full moon tonight and it stares back, moving ever so slightly every some minutes... she looks back at it almost expecting it to say something... something nice to her.

stupendous man flies in... its strange how he is her superhero, and she realises stupendous man only exists in her head. he has strange powers... he can be somewhere else and can communicate through telepathy, today he is using the moon as his tool. thats how he saves her from troubles. troubles of moons not telling her nice things... stupendous man to the rescue!!!

now is the time stupendous man must be characterised for those who want a mental image of him. he is not you regular "chaddi outside" superhero. he looks more like cupid. with seldom seen cupid like qualities(he wears clothes though). he has a loud booming voice, which goes through anything, even solid walls built around the heart, hardened over the years. laser cant go through it, but his voice can. he quotes shakespeare and he has a red ferrari as his choice of transport. you could see him sitting in the crowd cheering this certain team he likes to call "THE REDS". but you wont recognise him in his secret identity. his physique is rather upside down but that is just a decoy to the enemy... and like all superheros he has a weakness and an arch enemy... a certain woman he calls maya... "B" hasnt figured out whether maya is his weakness or his nemesis or both... "B" guesses both, since a man is most likely to love the one thing he is most likely to be destroyed by. and stupendous man, though a superhero, with a secret identity, is still a man after all.

"B" knows what she is going to do, she gets up...

a breeze blows into the dark room, its still wee hours of the morning... there are clouds in the sky, it is light golden...but the sun hasnt risen yet.

In the blink of an eye "B" changes... the colour of her hair changes from the "burgundy" red to a natural brown. she visits the strange city called "Angular B". she comes back to "Elite D" her home the next moment... she knows who she wants now, everything is clear...

she turns around, and "B" looks into her own reflection as "MAYA"

what happens next???

is maya's making a evil plan to seduce stupendous man into her trap?

or has maya's heart finally melted?

has maya decided to turn over a new leaf?

is this all rather stupid?

stay tuned...

to be contd.

FALLEN ETERNITY

I will be blown, to a thousand pieces

i know it, i can see my end

im miles away from it..yet....

yes, that's the one

the rocks that i will hit

the corner where the sea meets the mountain

 

i can even see the nameless,faceless on the very cliff

the sea air ruffling through their hair

as they now embrace,as they kiss

............or was that me?

I'd forgotten that moment long ago

wiped it like a dream i know cant come true

 

I actually dont know how i reached this high 

but its bliss... really!

you'd felt it too..remember?

we went to the city fair

both of us holding hands

and as the ferris wheel came down

the hands clasped tight

a gurgle that starts just below the navel

a shout escaped your beautiful heart shaped parted lips

a scream of excitement,of adrenaline

 

and im feeling that gurgle since eternity

the blissful emptiness...uncaring...gleeful

its just goes on and on and on

I'm very close now,nearing my end

i close my eyes now, spread my arms to my fatality

 

and then you kiss me awake

to my ruthless, vaccous reality

I say "sweetheart ! "

"please, tomorrow, dont wake me up"

2005/06... not too sure when

Full Circle

A water lily sinks

At a boys throw of a stone

Carefully aimed at it

for the price of a few marbles

The ripples going to eternity

Talking of the pain of the lily

And of the pond that had once sat still

To wait for the little one to bloom; Mute

A play of a boy, he dint hurt the lily

just killed it, unknowingly innocent

pleas to the heaven, silent.....

unsaid words of forgiveness

Now, as he watches his own child die

On the bed,at the dark corner of the room

himself stained with the little ones blood

Wife shrieking a maddening echo of the plea

the boy sinks into his death

the ripples of grief tearing ruthlessly

the heart of a father watching the ghastly death

Just as he saw his rapturous (sublime)* birth

MUTE

And a lily blooms yet another time

the pond's been waiting for the little one

Written in 2005 or 06.. not really sure...