Tuesday, January 24, 2006

nameless faceless bitches

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this is i guess the only way i can say that i like these blogs...and regularly read thm. pl all those who blog read them too.....

on a different note
things are quite good with me the last few days.....but doing a lot of thinking...'what?' is a BIG question!
but anyway,
what makes me wonder is the way people hurt you and still not feel guilty abt it.....some people tell me i cannot say a 'no' and i should learn...welll i have learnt to say a 'no' , and sometimes annoyingly so.... and when i cant i just avoid that situation all together....it results in even more hurt than other times....
but then i excuse myself saying that i had a reason....but u know thr in my head ive continued the argument subconciously saying...n excuse is good enough to hurt someone else.....


hmmm guilt thats what u call the argument...
.but yet as i was saying people do have habit of hurting people conciously and to them its natural.they are generally with a lot of money.generally is the word..it becomes a sadist fun for them...i started feeling this since in school though not as conciously as now....the gals mostly....i felt they had all the time in the world to do that....they would just hurt you and leave(add a scoffy expression to thr faces) not that i have anything against them now...but stilll i cant get over the humiliation i felt then...
also a feeling of pity and awe that i have now as to how they have managed to keep up the fake for so long....i mean thr lifestyle was fake...nobody can be mean right from birth....nobody is born mean....but how can u be so fake for so long..at such a small age...? and they still are...now perhaps, they have reasons- such as- getting the attention....being the pets....having gr8 good looking guys as bfs....well thr own reasons perhaps.
they are always putting up an act....well whatever...perhaps the act of being a BITCH has its own pros and cons...i wont understand them...perhaps for my own good

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