im free

...for breaking free..

and im free ....free falling....
'm gonna free fall out into nothin', gonna leave this world for a while.

and so the song goes...tom petty singing this for other reasons

and wierdly i write this wen im actually quite high....high on the best manala cream...on the very best ive ever had...(mr pheonix if u wanna stop at this point and decide to delete my number and my profile from ur phone and orkut account respectively...then i wud suggest u read on)

and i decide to write ....something that i havent been doing for quite a while now......
this perpetual dream is being lived
all the needed smiles are smiled
all the jokes cracked churn out a genuine laughter
and its is this laughter that keeps me alive....
all the love that was needed has been gained.....
and perhaps more than my share
im the most important person in my life
its so good to be single and happening again
sitting pretty much alone in baristathis evening...having my does of the best manala cream found in this world....
a thing ive practically been living on in the last few weeks or maybe months....
actually now that i think of it,it s been years actually....
living on something that has almost taken me over.....
and actually not apparent at all...no one gets to know.....
learnt acting pretty early on in my life...
and it seems im pretty good

or so it seems...

just that its now im getting practically bored with all this high....
all the pent up things are creating too much frustration
things are dying out in my life much sooner than i expected.....
hopes and dreams and the incredible faith.......well the last one died young....
one does not hope to see death this early....

and well like all other drugs i have been adviced by big daddy not to have it too much,.....or if not anything else....not infront o' him
manala cream.......the pretence of it.....drugs i take and others are fooled....