.......................and if u already have started ..............dont think too much.....i am not thinking myself...just writing arbitary things...............
im going in hibernation......i wanna keep my feelings to myself ...all of them.....even dissapointments, love,
the pain i can bear myself.....jo thoda bahut share hota thha woh bhi ab nahi hoga.....
on the other hand...
im trying hard to sleep and i'm failing miserably.....
i guess i need it....pretending can only fool mom and dad not my body and mind..ive become violent....ive become hyper reactive....
i laugh and i cry even at slightest provocation...my head is aching with all the fill up......i guess i will blog though.....can't bear a cold war ...i like things out in the open........another thing i noticed i like to have the love in front of me...anyone.......no from afar love for me........if that was what i wanted i wud have made up the people who love me......may be i do .....maybe no one exsists ...they are all in my head .. am i making sense....???? well i never did.i never do...wonder why people think i do?....maybe i think that they think i make sense. im nobody....im nobody.. nobody needs nobody! maybe life wont need me anymore....but even god doesnt need nobody! then i wont die....who he needed he took away....now can i become a ghost?neither here nor there!haunt all those who may need me....but then one who i needed isnt here......I AM STILL A TISSUE PAPER..naah im 'nobody'!
NOBODY needs NOBODY......THEN I NEED ME .......hmmm then i need nobody...nobody needs me......i can stay alone all my life...someday i wud dope....i want to feel what being ecstatic with nothing feels like......what wanting no one feels like......what exhilaration feels like......what nobody feels like....now that im nobody i guess the time has come......it maybe soon enough.....maybe a couple o days more......
7 comments:
hibernation just tends to block the negativity, doesnt cures it...
u know dee n adi n lotta others try this same thing, and u know the results too...
rest is up to u, take care
Someone once said...choose your battles...these days I add to that –
Choose your tears
Choose your pains
Choose your struggles of the mind
Choose the albatross you want to carry
Choose the way you want to break your heart
Because, life will anyway make you cry
Life will anyway cause great pain
Life will make sure your mind struggles with voices within
Life will force an albatross around your neck
and life will make sure your heart breaks
For that’s what life is all about
The joys, the happiness, the love we cherish
The freedom we feel…everything that makes us feel good
Don’t mean a thing by themselves.
Like they say, just like no one cries in utopia, no one understands the value of laughter either
And finally, be happy about one thing
That you get to choose your destiny,
While there are entire generations whose destiny is forced upon them
So go, meet life on the road, cos if you don’t it will come to your doorstep
Go, get hurt, get beaten, go feel the pain, feel the cold November rain…
And then come back into the sunshine of life and understand the true meaning of it…
Good Luck!
(...was this too sermonising? :P)
i guess i need to know the anonymouses commenting here on my blog...i need to appreciate the right person for the right thing....
love
shadows
u've been tagged
harry
nice post....but don't worry we all have this phase. In fact its such a coincidence that i saw a man wearing a T-shirt with a very apt line" At the end of the day no one cares". So true.
But i think there is something that is distubing you, and irking you from within. Just visit solitude and then see what is it thats troubling you.
dear rainmaker thats what hibernation is .....the solitude.....rather as my friend puts it ' the shell....'
i dint think this would make sense.. but thinking about it does.. it made sense.. YOU made sense wen u were outta ur senses.. cuz well.. in the end, it duznt evn really matter...
ashes to ashes, dust to dust.
peace.
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