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*really weird post

its the easiest title to anything that u cant seem to put your finger on... 

Q:"what the fuck is this painting all about???..."

A: oh it is untitled...!!! interpretation is left to the audience... you decide what it is since i cant

moving on to more pressing matters

being sick has its own boons.. you can watch all your old favourites, especially if you are bored....

for a idiot like me... i get the time to search for the best things in my life... get to catch up on a little bit of my sleep especially coz i tend to fall ill every once in a while

you can chat up with your long lost friends... on google talk...

and you can reflect

it is a very arbitrary term "reflect".. have always wondered why we use that term for thinking about random things in life

i was thinking why i feel sorry for certain people... when they tend to make nothing of their lives...

i have two examples of such people.. immensely talented, smart, intelligent...

and i wonder what is it that makes them so hopeless infront of other people.. maybe someday they will do wonders with their talent... but what i really wish is that i had their talent. i wish i had those talents and the resources that they have... and i wish i could exchange my life with theirs...no im not undermining my life in any way.. i have a great one thank you. but i wish i had as much as they did, to not care about throwing it all away (yeah stolen from a movie...a famous one at that).

if some one is born with gifts, what should one do... nurture it with all you have.. make something out of it... maybe not achieve (in terms of monetary achievements) but do something with what one has got. i have never been one of those who thinks topping the class is an achievement.. but letting that talent go to waste is another thing. i have seen these to literally wasting away what they have to sleep. seen people who have believed in them for a long time to give up on them. seen people say... "oh please! i dont want to turn into X". the day someone has to use me as a negative example, that, i think would be the saddest day of my life... 

who or what is a loser essentially, you cant lose out to life, life is too long to actually play a game in. i dont think it is merely a game to win or lose, its more like a football match... you score and what makes it interesting is life scores against you. and you fight against that. or is it just that?

i dont know really. i get irritated when some one tells me " oh you could have gotten this, or done that" and i want to say, what if i dont want to... what if for me... what i want is completely different from what you want from me? im not going to waste my gifts but i dont want to have what you want from my life. the people i know, they seem to think differently. solme understand, some just shrug their shoulders and say " you must think about what i told you" 

i need mental treatment... thats for sure... maybe its the same with the two people i was talking about... they want something else. they dont want these talents... they want something completely different... and i cant see what... but still i wish i had their talents... and be like them to not care and throw it all away...