deathwish

well i was talking to a dear friend of mine and he said that there is a slight difference between me and him, which is that i have an expressed "deathwish"

so finally ive got down to thinking why do i hav a deathwish ? after all what is so unbearable in my life that i need to die...
its probably the glory attached to death and the curiosity of it.the hopes that a lot of people will miss me once i die.hehehe.
its a matter of all the things that may happen while im dying or when im dead....
its funny the way im thinking i guess.....
but well here it is....
the question is ultimately when will i die anyway...?
the question to myself....
and i have been sending my requests for quite long now....
ive given up hopes of it being accepted atleast for a lil more time....