chand...

aaj chand ko jee bhar ke dekha

akele taro mein, mere haal sa

kuch lavs chura ke laya thha tumhare hoton se

aur thodi andekhi si yaadein bhi...

humari duri ka ek payamar..

samajh nahi aata hai ki bakshish mein kya du!

chandni ko hi choom loon?

ki woh teri khushbu laati hai

ya apna sab luta doon

ki chand mere sab ka ehsaas dilati hai......

ek chand hi hai jo tumhara mera khwab bankar

lipat ta hai hum dono se

ke aaj mujhe fir se judai mein bhi

chain se neend to aaye

im feeling a lil left out....maybe iv forgotten how to love...or maybe i dont believe in the ideals of it

the colors of walls

im searching for a room near my college and it has proved to be a big pain in the neck......its so difficult to find a satisfactory room near my college.......specially with so much work on my head.i have no clue what im doing...... single rooms with no hassles for girls......do not exist.........
and specially when the budget is tight.....
i guess what i will do is take the same amount of money from dad as i used to but cut sopme of my expenses to save up the rest of the rent...
on the other hand ...i have kinda got a lil restrained for my own sake.....im hurt very easily it seems.....
akele rehna hai....saala koi rehne hi nahi deta....dimag ka dahi ho gaya hai....

jeeti jaagti diware mere kamre ki,

mere man ke saath saath rang badalti hai....

log kehte hain,

sirf seelan hai.....

barish ke dino ki...

ya shayad kahi koi daraar hogi !!

par sach ke chehre bante maine dekha hai

jab akele main sisakti hoon

to diware halka gungunake sulati hai mujhe..

khirkiyo ki aati hawa

thapkiya deti hai, sehlati hai.

khush hoti hoon to,

aap hi jaise surakj ki kirane naachti hai diware pe

gussa hoti hoon to saham jaati hai

der shaam aaun to narm garmahat se lipat ti hai mere gale se

jeeti jaagti diware,

rang badalti

fusfusake baat karti

mere nakhre jhelti diwar

shayad mere sabse achi saheli hai

naam rakha hai maine uska

akelapan

wrought iron

is that how it is spelled?
i dunno ...i just started writing with that having to study the modern furniture fads......i guess all of us know tat we all like to buy "wrought iron" furniture or atleast the looks of it....
funnily a few years ago i had an assignment to study how wrought iron furniture is made......
we have all suddenly started wanting things that are "not so perfect" isnt it? specially in the last few years ......
but science still works for perfection....human mind seems to be striving for perfection and yet aesthetics still declare the imperfect as the fashion....or fad , whatever u may call it.
its strange how human mind works.......constantly looking for change but never accepting it when it comes to using that change.....
things are always "forever" (i guess i have been using that word very often in the last few entries)
we think of things as stable as they are as of now......hamesha aisa hi rahega......nothing can change ....but then we all are looking for change always.....

as fashion students we are told how to incorporate the want of change and make "them" buy what we make .......essentially not making anything newbut definitely finding out what is it that the other people want......and taking the chances.........but even in our personal lives we are scared to take chances....but we do...coz there is nothing definite.....we take a chance coz we dont have any choice.....
even if i "think all about it" i still know that my plans may not succed......so it is a chance isnt it?
coz i guess its the imperfection and the risk that entices people.......people who give up and die are those who know there is not a second way......


on a different note.......im very blue....it seems thr is nothing that is going right......nothing possibly that can go right......and im going crazy....all im doing is alienating myself from those very things that i love doing.....and well if this is a sort of wall that will continue to build then so be it......


p.s. (for adi specifically): Alcohol doesn't solve any problems, but then again, Neither does milk. ; )